One Day

We will gaze at the stars all night.

When I grow up.

I'm living here.

Under Pressure

I know this is the hardest year of my academic life (as i've been told so many times before) but my lack of motivation is fuelling an even more lackadaiscal view to this second year of college.

I've got so many other things to worry about..this doesnt seem to top my list..and it should.
Instead ive resorted to lie-ins, listening to music and generally just lazing about.
Ive managed to stall doing my coursework by writing this blog, which i think helps me vent all my frustration.

My problem is that i leave it all to the last minute, which gets me even more annoyed at myself.

New years resolution = stop being lazy and care for once.

Where now?

Perhaps this second blog will be better this time :)

I think so far my life has consisted of friends, family, school, and various other small things that I dont care to mention. and even though im so grateful to have all those things, a part of me feels its all an act to get somewhere else in life. That what i have now is a shortcut and almost a waste of time. I dont think im explaining this very well..but i hope there are some out there who understand.

My friends and family are most important to me and in around 9 months i'll be leaving on a gap year..could i be any more afraid of losing contact with them?? I'm totally afraid of what the future brings, but im happy where i am now..so cant it stay like this?

Last night I went to the jailhouse to see a friend play..kind of came to a realisation that I would never have had before now. I guess i felt something for someone who i thought was just a really good friend. I tend to alienate people when it comes to feelings and stuff. Im so bad at expressing how i feel and if i do..i always ask myself "where do i go from here?" I guess i'll have to figure this one out by myself. At the moment, Im enjoying where it is right now..its exciting and something new..despite all the rumours and gossip at college.

thats all for now.

until the next time i decide to post my life on here

x

Hey!
This is my first blog, I'm going to have trouble finding some inspiration from somewhere and actually writing what I think/feel so bare with me.

I moved to this small city around 5 years ago from the Solomon Islands. My family being practically nomadic have been moving round for quite a while now. I think this is the longest I've stayed in one place.
Currently enjoying life but am anxious to see whats out there. I guess I can safely say that I'll be glad to vacate this sullen city.